my chemical romance

Haven't been blogging much here cause I decided to turn to my conventional diary for a couple of entries (: heh! Its quite nice to write in the conventional diary again! I think I shall invest in one with some cute small lock soon hahaha. Not because I have many secrets to lock up but because one that has a lock and key will make it so diary-ish! Which is kinda exciting! hahah!

Okay anywayyyyyyy, A VERY VERY HAPPY BRITHDAYYYYYYYYYY TO MR MAK CHANKEET! (: I hope you had a really lovely time on your special day! :D

Today I ponned Sports Day! Okay wait, I think I'm supposed to be more discreet. Ignore that, I have fluuuu :D Haha! Before you start thinking that I'm a really bad kid, I assure you that I ponned with my Mom's blessings k! In fact she was the one who instigated! hahahah! So in the morning, I accompanied my sister to the library, where she mugged for her exams and I read thrashy magazines. I think I read all the CLEO issues that are available in Queenstown Library lah haha! After that I read old issues of The New Paper, which is damn interesting! Its like the most juicy newspaper around with all those cover stories! :D

Finallyyyyy, after threatening myself with various degrees of punishments, I got down to doing my stupid Math tutorial on Binomial Distribution at three in the afternoon! :D Whoa its been so long since I last completed a tutorial before it is dued! I feel so highly accomplished! hahahah!

Met Kailing in the evening for dinner and we talked for quite a while at PLD. Hey girl! :D Remember the ticket! :D Don't ever feel like you're bothering me okay! You're my friend and I'll always have time for you! Take care ah! (:

Feeling kinda sleepy now! Tmr is a holidayyyyyyyyy! (:


I would tame the stars, and save the brightest one for you

good times last forever, I'll keep my heart with yours.

Another Friday! (: Lessons were real slack and I was thanking good heavens above for that because I was having a throbbing, come-and-go headache all day! I'll seriously crumble and die if we have bio makeup tutorial today or sth. hahaha. Thank goodness for the invention of panadol! After eating some I felt that the sun could shine again. hahahaha. Thanks simon and ck for the supply (: I just added a pile of very-difficult-to-disintegrate panadols to my body store though. It will be where they will remain for the next twenty years! eiks.

After school Liewqi and I went to selftrain for a while cause I wanted to test out my ankle. It feels quite okay except for one area thats still quite tender, but the pain is bearable when the ball hits it, so its okay! We played for awhile then it started raining pots and pans! So we had to run for shelter! Slacked around with some of the soccer girls and CS is damn funny! Sorry CS, I have Venus already so I can't accept you! hahahah! I'm tempted to post her shuai picture here. Do you think she'll mind? :D

After that I went to meet HuiXinnnnn and Shazieeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! AHHHHH and they're the reason why I am so happy now! -FAT SMILE :DD Man, I really love you two! :D And going out with you guys today made me realise how much I've miss you both you know! I must have made your days! LOL! Anw, PohHuixin is still the same!: Eat non-stop, think about food non-stop, burp so loudly (wahlao you should reflect lah!), and always mocking my pronounciation! Still resembles the banana-in-pyjamas bear :D Shazwani my bestest squadmate and trusty atm STILL has that huge bladder and never needs to go to the toilet! Eh, sth wrong lah girl! LOLLLLLLL

Really had alot of fun hanging out at town although they kept ganging up and mocking me ): So evil! eyyyy I have good taste okay! I chose the cutest alien pencil and the storekeeper agrees with me! :D hahahah! I felt a bit sad when I hugged them goodbye ): Cause it'll be a while before we have time to meet up again ): Oh well! Nonetheless, THANK YOU for accompanying me today you two! (: LOVE!

On my way home I met Rowena at the busstop and we went home together! So coincidental cause she just went out with Rachel from G1! Crescentians unite! (: haha! We saw Geraldine, Evonne and Jialing at Taka too! Crescent crescent!

My nose is so clogged up! I hope I don't die during training tmr ): I can't breathe through my nose ):

Let your waves crash down on me ;

First game against TJ was played yesterday and we lost! ): Awww. Nevermind! Three more to go! We shall fightttttt on! (:

Today I was so energetic because I slept at ten last night! The night never felt more blissfully long! (: I woke up once at twelve and I was SO HAPPY to see it was only midnight; which means I have six more slumber hours! :D And then I woke again at four feeling quite refreshed and I was quite sure it was time to get up already! BUT, I just had to snigger to myself upon looking at the clock because I realise with glee that I get to laze in bed for two more hours! On a school day! :D Whoa, is that like rare or what right! (: hahahah! The wonders of an early night!

It was totally raining pots and pans in the morning and I got splish-splashed on by this car! hahahahah! About five seconds before that happened I was just thinking to myself, "yay this umbrella is so big I won't get wet!" and then this car came speding by... /: /: /: Thanks lah. Maybe there was really a Thought Policeman nearby and he wanted some black humour.

I think the Thought Police thing Mrs Ong was telling us about today is a really cool and intriging concept. But super scary! Its like you have no privacy even in the hidden folds of your brain because there are people probbing it to find your deepest and darkest fears! /: eiks! Seriously, I think Mrs Ong is such an interesting teacher! She makes even Wizard of Ox (which I thought was ordinary and quite boring) sound like a really nice tale with a profound message :D heh

Went home with YiWei, SiYun, Lekchia and ReiHorng after school and on some last minute arrangements, Lekchia and I decided to go mug at Toa Payoh library! hahah! After eating lunch, we went to the library where I finished my very-overdued Probablity tutorial and he did his Chem tutorial! We are good children (: hahahaha

Okay I really must make it a point to study out more often! I really hardly get anything done when I'm at home! Now is the perfect proof. hahaha

It's a short day tmr! (: Followed by Sports Day aka self-proclaimed holiday on Monday and Public holiday on Tuesday! Ahhh, happy! (:

I have been saving smiles for you (:

This phrase makes me think of zhuting, whos perpetually smiling into mirrors! hahah! Eh seet zhuting next time I shall sing you the song! :D Anw, some sappy declarations coming up! Here's a big "THANKYOU!" shout-out to sophialo and the little one for always being there for me, even though sometimes I know I'm such a gigantic moron! -sheepish. LOVE! :D

Math test today can be summarised into a word spelled D I S A S T R O U S! I didn't complete a single question out of the five and after thirty minutes, I was like damn free already. hahahaha. Spent the rest of the time looking around and feeling sad for my neck, which was getting stiff from being hunched over the tiny table /: hahaha. I am such a model student.

yep and, thanks for today! (:

tag replies

amdis: wah thanks for the piece of good news! hahahahahahahha! and I have NO IDEA why I have cs againnnnnn ahhh !@#$%


jan: haha you ah! HOW ARE YOU DOING IN AUSTRALIAAAAAAA! you better study ah! I asked sj to keep a strict eye on you already! Don't party tooo hard! :D

yx: HAHAHA thanks but no thanks! LOL! I already have cs ): detention barracks sounds ten times worse!

patient: EHHH jiayou jiauou!! ((: I cheer for you! You can do it! -big grin!

hx: OKAY! you say one ah! :D I haven't met you for eons! ):

eunice: hahahaha thankssssss girl! One day we go eat island creamery k! You must try the brandied cherry! :D its HEAVENLY! (:

okay! off to bed! :D

OH before that, I got my jersey today! :D You know I chose number 23 for two reasons! Firstly its my register number so it was the first number that popped into my head and secondly, its not the number of some famous footballer cause I'll probably get like, scoffed at or sth hahahahahah! OR SO I THOUGHT! Soph and Yong happily told me its David Beckham's number in Real Madrid. I nearly fainted! hahahahahahahhaha! So hilarious! I thought hes number 7 or sth?! Sorry Mr David Beckham. Its entirely unintentional I swear!
eh STANLEY you still tell me my number lousy! To think I believed you!! hahahaha

okay thats all! nights world!

look at the stars, look how they shine for you (:

Went to Queenstown Library to mug today and I have come to conclude that it is still my favorite library in the world! (: I met some people there too! :D I think its so exciting to meet people that you know at some unplanned place! haha! First I saw Thomas, then I saw Isabelle the toilet bird!! And then I saw Mrs Heng and two familiar looking ex-crescentians at the cafe! Mrs Heng actually remembers my name! That's an earthshattering feat considering she only taught me PE when I was in Sec 2? hahahah!

OH! TJ beat NY 4-0! And our first match is against TJ! I was talking to Liewqi and she was was like, "I hope its cause NY deproved and not TJ improved!" hahahahaha. So funny! OKAY! full steam aheadddddddddd! -BIG GRIN
I'm really too distracted to study! First match is in 3 days! -glups.

I feel forty kinds of sadness.

Just had a longggggggg chat with my sister (: I think I'm really fortunate to have an older sister to talk to, since my parents decided to have a friendly squabble now /: My Mom claims that friendly squabbles keeps couples together. haha. Quite true lah. Nonetheless, I hope they call for a truce soon. Otherwise people, please try to date me everyday cause it seems really cold at home (cold war raging) -grimace. Oh but actually today I kept shivering too cause its really exceptionally and realistically cold. The weather was so gloomy.

Btw, to my sister, cheer up and jiayou for your exams! You can do it k!(:

Back to mundane rantings. I didn't study at all the entire day!! ): I think I'll flunk the stupid, untimely Math test on Monday. Not that I really care, other than the fact I feel very dui bu qi Ms Qwee. I guess I'll put in one day of effort and see where it can get me.

Jump back to square one! (:

tag replies

eunice: thankss girl! (:

--: lol why must you be so mysterious? ehh I'm in girls' soccer if that interests you.

one word.

EIKS!

This is so difficult and strange. When I read it, its like plunging into a spider web. I felt this overwhelming wave of.. things. Uncertainty, confusion, surprise, apology and finally, disappointment. I can't fathom what's going on because well, I guess we're never brave enough to talk about it.

haha I just suck at this. I got everything tangled and misunderstood and whoa, I'm a total screwed-up case.

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I'm never shy but this is different
I can't explain the way I'm feeling tonight
I'm losing control of my heart
Tell me what can I do to make you happy
Nothing I ever say seems to come out right
I'm losing control of my heart

And I wish that I could be
Another better part of me
Can't hear what your thinking
Maybe if I just let go
you'd open up your heart

But I can't read you
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart defending I get left behind
I can't reach you
I wish I knew what's going through your mind
Can't touch you, your heart protecting I get left behind

Daniel Bedingfield; I can't read you

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I played so badly during field training yesterday that I won't be surprised if I get kicked out for comp. I kept losing possession of the ball and panicking under pressure /: eiks. It really feels terrible to have such a demoralising training session. AND, I sprained my right ankle again when Coach rammed into my leg /: Brilliant. It wasn't his fault though. He left some bruises, but it was the clumsy way I fell that got it strained again.

And sometimes, I don't understand adults. Whatever it is, it just makes me feel like running away from home for a day or two. Icy atmoshperes like this one are scary, and unfamiliar. It doesn't help if you two pretend everything is normal either. I'm not a two year old.

Hmm-mm. In summary, life sucks, take drugs. (favourite friend's favourite phrase) haha just kidding! :D Drugs are baddddddddd okay! Wry attempt at a joke. okay I'm going to sleep. Then I'll have the energy to tackle all these!

Shall start with a big smile! -BIG SMILE! oh yeah.

tagreplies

--: hmm? who are you?

shaojian: I think my Mom might change her mind! (: Meow can weave her magic on her somehow for being so cute.

yx: hahaha I was talllllllll! :D

it ends tonight

First things first, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MOOOO MOOOOOOOOOO! Happy one-human-year-seven-doggy-years you old thing! :D You know I loveeeeeeee you even though you can't read! (: hahaha.

Oh, and my Mom really want to give Meow Meow away already ): Most likely she's going to the Cat Welfare Society because they sound more promising than SPCA when cats are concerned. I'm quite sure Meow will get adopted really quickly cause its really the cutest kitty I've ever seen! Or at least I really hope so ): If they put it to sleep just because no one adopts it fast enough I'm going to be so sad and I'm going to feel guilty all my life because it would have been better off if we didn't take it home! /: Sigh!
Oh yes, if anyone wants to adopt Meow, please tell me! (: She's really really cute! With little stripes on her face, hands and legs and black paw-paws that makes it look like its wearing gloves (:

Somehow this week passed really quickly and its soon to be Friday already! (: I think my body's battery strength is like my phone's- getting weaker and weaker! /: I get so lethargic before my day should end. Yawns. Maybe its the time again /:

Training is stepping up! We're playing full time games for every training and I was totally exhausted after yesterday's. haha. But in a way it feels quite good too, other than the fact that I'm still wayyyyyyy below par. I scored a goal though! YAYYYYY! But thats probably cause the goalie was this sec one chs guy and he wasn't tall enough to block my shot. hahahah! Whoops! :D

I just need to stay alive for one more day (:

truth

I'm so sleeeeeeeeeepy today even though I slept at like, ten last night? hahah! Totally conked out during bio. I didn't catch any of the videos other than when I opened my eyes for two seconds to see this eyeball rotating. ugh, so tired! I can't wait for June holidays to come! hahah! Okay, its still a long way I know.

After school Sean and I were supposed to go for Interact but out of the kindness of our golden hearts, we accompanied poor, lonely YiWei and went to eat Venezia together at Taka! :D When we finished eating and YiWei had to go, it was already four plus so ehhh, we didn't go for Interact in the end cause the kids' study time ends at five anw! So I still didn't get to see Indra! ): Instead, Sean and I sat at the fountain and yakked for nearly two whole hours! hahahahah! Yep then headed home after that (:

There's maths tutorial to do but I really don't feel like doing! I just want to curl up and go to sleep for a hundred years. Yawns. So much for turning over a new leaf/

Btw, a big THANKYOU goes out to YangXiang! For being "The (self-proclaimed) Great Senior" and for dropping thoughtful tags/sms-es every now and then! And to the little one seet zhuting too! (: You're the sweetest friend anyone can ask for! :) Big smile back! :DDD

the answer to our lives

You know, you really shouldn't say things for the moment and you shouldn't make promises you can't keep either. I know you're busy with your life and so am I but it was always you who called to lament that you can't move on easily from the past. Then what excatly are you doing now? What am I suppose to expect from you? ):
Don't get me wrong, I'm not angry with you for forgetting. I'm more upset about the fact that you are slowly walking out of my life.
We all are.

Okayyyyyyyyyyyyyy. Sorry about such a heavy entry start. Hmm-mm (:

On a lighter note, I feel so hardworking today! (: After more than two hours of maths tutorial, I went for bio consultation with zeet, soph, yong and lekchia! And I actually understood what Ms Wang was talking about! hahahahah! -big grin :D

ooh and yaoguang just told me chem spa is very easy! (: hallelujah!

nap time! byeeeeeeeeee! (:

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs

Meow just scratched the hell out of me! You know I thought her little paws are like the softest, smallest and cutest little paws I have ever seen! But I changed by mind when I saw those sneaky little sharp claws come shooting out whenever she gets excited! They can make Moo's claws blush and look sorry for themselves!

I tried finishing my Complex tutorial 2 but til now I still haven't completed it! /: I really hate complex numbers! ): But thanks valerie for lending me your tutorial! (: Without it I won't even be able to proceed from one question to another lah /:

Oh yeah PW results were released yesterday! And our whole class got an A! YAYYYY! :D For about three seconds Dr Siva actually looked quite cute cause he looked genuinely happy when he annouced "Aiyah the whole class got A lah!" with this huge grin on his face. lol! He should like apply his knowledge on specialisation and comparative advantage to himself. He's a much better teacher for PW as compared to Econs. He should switch disciplinaries!

tag replies!

yx: LOL yeah that doesn't make sense. Your grades cannot permutate the letters one. Its all AAAA! smartie! hahah! How's life in army now? :D

eunice: yeahhhhhhhhhh all the way! -grins. Tallie!

siyun: haha YEAHHH mugging partner we must jiayou! Did I ever tell you I'm so grateful for your existence? :D

shaojian: heyyyyyyyyyy you tagged! (: HAHA! You're already my pet lah! You're my pet cow and I shall name you Buttercup! LOL. Eh why you go Australia and not New Zealand? :D

enli: haha! I like my dog toooo! :D eh sakina say we should all go on a date soon! And I agreeeeee! :D

patient: haha shes so cute right! yay! :D

Like the taste of sweet after sour,
Like the passing of an April shower

So you end up watching chances fade, and wondering what's real

Hello worlddddd!
First things first! (: HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAYYYY to tallie EUNICEEEEEEEE YAP AND smallie SEET ZHUTINGGGGG! (: hahah! Hope both of you had the lovliest time on your special days! Hugs! <3

And so J2 Blocks 1 has finally reached a conclusion! Call it low expectations or easy satisfaction, I'm actually quite relieved this time cause at least I didn't get any Us! :D It gets boring and really sad to always see a string of Us of the progress slip after a while. hahaha.

But after looking at the isp percentiles, I realise I'm like still a really sad case! Almost all my subjects are below the 50% percentile lah /: When I showed my Dad he was quite thunderstruck, until I showed him my J1 Blocks results, of which he became even more thunderstruck! As in thunderous thunderstruck hor, not the awed kind. hahahah! It was BBUUU! Even the grades themselves are sneering at me lah wth /: They Boo me ):

Okay, next up will be June blocks! All the wayyyyyyy! (:

And even when your hope is gone; Move along, move along just to make it through (:

I wanted to blog about poor Meow who got sick today but my Mom's yelling for me to go and do the dishes! /:

BYE! :D


For being there for my ups and downs,
for being my ups and downs
(:

the time with you is standing still

MooMoo keeps looking in on Meow Meow! (Who is probably his first furry friend!) (: SO SWEET RIGHT! :D Up til now MooMoo is still sitting patiently beside Meow's basket you know! My sis and I were laughing like mad cause we intro-ed them and the intro went like, "MooMoo, Meow Meow. Meow Meow, MooMoo!" hahahahahahah!

OH and ironically, instead of MooMoo scaring the Meow, Meow snarled at MooMoo so fiercely at first that MooMoo jumped like ten feet into the air! HAHAHAHA! But now they seem to be getting along fine (:

I hope they become friends! (:

Meet Meow Meow! (:

there's a light in your eyes,

I have made an important and devastating discovery! I really really really really cannot study at home on a non-urgent (as in no exam tmr) and carefree day!

You see my day ah: I..

woke up
brush teeth
ate brunch
read storybook
play with moomoo
clear my table, take out complex tutorial, picks up pen
Mom announces its time for teabreak
two hour teabreak plus family-talk-rubbish session commences
play with moomoo again
returns to room, picks up pen
brother comes in and starts complaining about algebra
taught him
picks up pen again
does one complex question
sister announces she is hungry
I agree
go out and cook maggi mee
watch xi ling men
watch ice age
watch a cinderella story
Mom kicks me back into the room
picks up pen
beep! sms from Dr Siva
realise I have to blog about Econs tutorial

And here I am now -.-

YOU SEE!

Shakes head. Either my pen is cursed or my pen is cursed! Everytime I pick it up sth will happen!

okay I'm really going to do my complex tutorial now! And I'm going to use a pencil!

just kidding, I'm not that superstitious! :D I'll just use a different pen! hahahahahahaha

byebye!

in black and in white,

A longggggg weekend awaits! (: I feel so high-spirited! hahahaha.

This week has been really tiring, although I don't know why I'm so tired since I was being a lazy ass all week. I hardly did any work/tutorials and somehow, I need to summon twice the effort to force myself to pay attention to what the lecturer is saying during lectures /: Most of the time I really can't get anything in /: I keep nodding off somemore! I think I'm aging!

Today was quite a slack day cause its mainly just lectures. After school eight of us supposedly had 8x200m inter-class relay but the event dragged and dragged one and a half hour past the scheduled time and in the end we didn't even compete in the race /: Spent that two hours rotting on the stands. Went Island Creamary with YiWei, ChrisSeah, Sean and Terry after that and four of us (minus YiWei) shared a tub of Brandied Cherry! Mannnnnnn I tell you, that's the best flavour! :D It's soooooooooo delicious it makes me so happy eating it! hahahahah! I'm been talking about it non-stop to Claire since I ate that with YinYee! :D Yakked there for nearly another two hours before heading home (:

okay I'm going to curl up in the bed and sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep for a hundred years! Goodnight world! (:

give me one of your therapeutic smiles!

My calf is killing me! After torturous, painful, unbearable, killer calf cramps (melodramatic expression) during training last Friday, my calf wound itself so tight the tendons and veins probably look like hetero-chromatin (I hope I got the right one) now. Yesterday it just feels sore, but today I could hardly climb out of bed lah. Sucks. So I feel like an eighty year old limping around and whincing as I go up the stairs and up slopes /: I'm boycotting my sister and brother cause instead of sympathising with their wonderful, beloved sister, they laughed at my sorry plight! Terima Kasih you two. How I love you both /: Hahah!

I went to the library today with my sis cause shes gonna have exams soon and needed a study partner plus I need to kick start on some brand new study regime and I was determined to get some work done! But uhm, after doing like an hour of work while listening to 98.7 top twenty count-down (which means I actually hardly did anything), I started reading this Lurlene McDaniel book and I couldn't put it down! It is a really depressing book. In case you don't know, Lurlene McDaniel kind-of specialises in writing books about teens or children with terminal illnesses, so its really damn sad ): So as I was reading and reading, I got sadder and sadder until I started tearing cause the girl died after this long brave fight! ): omg I was so mortified when the person sitting opposite me offered me a tissue. Eiks!

Okay, so the library is no place to read this sort of tragic story. hahaha!

Haven't updated on events happening during the past few days! Will get down it soon when I feel like blogging again (:

Have a lovely week ahead! (: