Today, my mind suddenly told me I've changed. It was probably something I was doing and then the words just registered in my mind, "You're so different now". Not in the sense that I've become an evil girl from a good girl, or a good to an evil one. Just that, I suddenly realise that I have undergone a near 180 degrees change. A change at its climax.

I really miss the feeling of totally letting loose and talking to someone I feel really really understand me. I despise the way I manipulate myself to think in a certain way to make myself feel better. I realise now it isn't part of positive thinking. It is self denial.

Maybe I just need some committments. Maybe I need to throw all of my soul into doing something and love it with all my heart until it becomes part of the air that I breathe. Perhaps the influx of new and unfamiliar emotions in me have totally upset this balance.

Anyway, this is all random. I guess I have been trying so hard to explain this new found feeling of insecurity within me. Maybe this is it.

I'm sure I'll find the answer to all these soon. Someone told me last time that there's always an answer and a reason for everything that happens. And I believe it. (:
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Okay! Enough of emo-ing around! Let me tell you all a secret! I...I didn't go to school today! And I wasn't really sick. haha. Duh, like you all don't know. But anyway, I decided to pack my stuff cause they're really messy and even me, the Queen of Messiness according to Isabelle the Neat Freak, did not find my messy room homely anymore. Sadly, I'm only halfway through so there're tons of papers shrewed all over the place and about ten thousand bags of filled ntuc plastic bags. Never fails to amaze me the amount of rubbish I accumulate :D

And in the process of packing, I found so many little pieces of treasures that I never thought I will see again! (: The crumpled notes and the little gifts, even sth like a snoopy plaster. Everything sort of holds one specific memory that I'll never want to forget (:

Oh and I met up with the class girls at Taka for lunch! :D While they went back to school, I went to the library to get some books while waiting for hs since the girl ends at around one.

MooMoo is so cute! He is lying at the door waiting for my Dad to come home. He does this everyday when six oclock comes. SOO CUTE. My Mom says he waits for me everyday at around four too. I shall try not to disappoint him as far as possible hahaha.

Okayyyyy. Tmr got no comm serve cus we end Econs only at four. Then after that I'll probably meet yinyee at Marina Square (:


I'm falling even more in love with you
letting go of all I've held on to
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you;