I will survive.

Today I learnt that it really helps to talk about your problems, and it really helps to turn on the tap and let out some pent up frustration. I've been keeping alot of things inside, silently trying to figure out my next move, and its really eating me up inside. I just kept hitting brick walls, until I feel myself losing sense of my direction, and that made me feel even worse. Quota filled, it's policy, I'm sorry. I know brick walls are there to show us how badly we want something, but I'm really tired of going against it.

Nonetheless, I feel alot better now after some company, a few big hugs and a healthy dose of advice from my cat. Sometimes I really don't know what I'll do without him and his TLC. Thanks dear ((:

I'm still abit confused as to what to do now. I'm not sure what I will wake up to tmr, but probably that same sinking feeling that I feel even when I sleep. I really hope that, as my sister says, I will find that things all fall nicely into place tmr. I don't know whether I will be going ahead with this work and study thing. But cat is right, both outcomes will be good for me. I have nth to fear, and nth to be worried about. I will just have to play the cards as they are dealt to me.

Work tmr! (: I love Monday mornings because they are so busy and time flies.